So, I'm in the last week and a half of my 30's. Soon I'll celebrate my 2nd 39th birthday. I am finishing out the decade with the flu which sucks royal. The stomach flu is one thing... painful, awful but it is also fast--lasting a day or two. This sucker has been around for a week now and I sound like Lauren Bacall. Or maybe my voice is even lower than that. Seeeexxxxxyyyyy!
As I look back on this decade I wonder how I would classify it. Things I've done.
1-Had my second and last baby
2-stopped working outside the home (that assumes I work inside! Hah!)
3-Travelled to Europe twice.
4-Learned to Scuba Dive
5-Learned to play tennis
6-Learned/started making jewelry and other crafts
7-Was on a board for a local camp
Ok, so those are just some of them and it looks like a pretty lame list. I really hope it's the illness that is preventing me from remembering some of my greater contributions to the world.
Whenever something inconvenient happens to me-- (I use that word instead of 'bad' since I know what bad can be....) --Like getting sick or falling down or scraping my car...I wonder about my Karma. I say to the world "I'm a nice person, I treat people kindly, I help out where I can....Why is this happening?" And I truly believe that I am a kind person. And I think that is how I'll be remembered.
So in my kindness I also am incredibly non-confrontational. I would rather stick a needle through my arm than have a fight. BUT LATELY I've decided to speak my mind more. Particularly with family. The Thought is this: Why are we more forthcoming with friends than with family? (Well, at least my family!) I'd rather tell my friend something I don't like about them than a sister of mine. Well enough of that crap. If we can't tell our family than who will? No more carping about behind their back. If it worries you, find out the truth from them, not third or fourth hand. If they want to yell and distance themselves from you that's fine, at least your worries are not yours alone anymore.
Wow, did I get off of the topic of my 30's. Sorry folks, ill heads took over.
I gotta go take some medicine.
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Aren't blogs a great place to rant?
Loved your line about "assuming you work inside" the home...
Hope you feel better soon. Nothing like an illness to make you appreciate good health when it finally returns.
Oh golly...we got some things to chat about when I see you. I went through a kind of existential angst in my late 30's sort of like a teenager turning twenty. And realized that I had been way too meek (read non-confrontational) and that now it is time to speak up.
And your list is so not lame...
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